Monday, June 21, 2010

Wasted :: Life

So, lately a lot of the e-mails and messages I get from you all are pertaining to the the video for "Living the Wasted Life". More specifically, you're all asking if it's ever going to happen. The good news is yes, it will happen. The bad news is that we don't know when. Putting together a video is a really hard thing to do, you have find the right director and connect with him or her enough to where you are both working... errr, attempting to work, towards the same goal.

We met with a few different directors, spoke about concepts and ideas, but nothing ever clicked. After a few months we did find a guy who clicked. His idea was perfect and his previous work amazing. But somehow, between the who, the what, the when, the where and the why, everything fell apart. No one is really to blame, but after fruitless attempts, it kept getting stacked further and further behind everything else on the shelf. So much to do, so little time.

As "All Beauty Destroyed" inches towards completion, I think it's less and less likely we will make this video before it's release. Once this new record is done, it will be a whirlwind of chaos. We are doing something here, something that will usurp every ounce of energy and time from all of us. The "Wasted Life" video may not even be a possibility for now.

But, as much as I am disappointed by this, I'm also determined. Because I made a promise to myself and to everyone that I would make this video. We have a great concept that will remain a great concept. It's something I have set my mind on creating and I'm going to fucking do it. Once things die down I will come back to finish what I started. Besides, I have a video version of "Wasted Life" that won't ever see the light of day unless I finish the video, right?

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Forward, March!

I really love making records, but I also really fucking hate it. It's always a classic bipolar situation of euphoria and loving every minute and every note of what you're doing, to be followed by the inevitable crash of writers block and insecurity.

My solution?


At least for me it gives me the chance to step away from my own work and just enjoy making music, because, in the end, that's what it's about. Let's be honest, I have no vested interest in writing something amazing for another persons' band. Most people tend to ignore remixes anyways. Obviously, one has to put effort into all of their work as a bad remix reflects negatively on the remixer, and likely the band being remixed will be left with a bad taste in their mouth. But, the self imposed or perceived pressure is much different.

This week has been one of those weeks. I've been wracked with writers block and frustration, unable to complete any real task. More or less sitting in front of the computer screen expecting it to do the work for me. This was quite a contrast from last week, which saw nearly three songs completed. What goes up must come down, I suppose. Just as my patience, and even perhaps my sanity were at their breaking point, a Suicide Commando remix landed on my desk.

Like a wave of xanax the relief came over me and I finally had something to work on that wasn't driving me mad. Feeling much more realigned, I can sit down to work today without my heart sinking. Thanks, Johan for saving my ass.

And speaking of remixes, here's the Depeche Mode remix that no one likes!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

All :: Violence :: Destroyed

Finishing up another song this week. Many thanks to Gl├╝cksschwein and HAM. They have been invaluable studio assistants.

If you're curious about the workspace, it is extremely minimal. I have pared away all non essential items and thrown them in the cellar. Let them collect dust. I absolutely loath gear, I find it destroys all my creativity.

Back to work, locked away here in my shell, as rain continues to beat down on Salzburg. Hope we don't wash away.